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I find it hard to believe we’ve reached the end of 2017. I’ve been in a relationship nearly 6 months now, I’m only 4 months away from finishing my degree. How has the time gone so quickly? In only a couple of weeks I’ll be 21, honestly, I swear every year feels like it’s going quicker and quicker.
I keep getting questions about what I’m going to do after university and right now I don’t know…it all depends as to what I can achieve with my blog as to if I’m going to take it full time in 2018 the dream or if I’m going to move home for a couple of months until I can find a job that pays enough to move out and get my own place and continue blogging on the side. All I know is that I’m not going to let things get to me in the same way I did in 2017.
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While I was writing this post I was realising how long I spent letting myself distance myself from my friends, and not putting in any effort in really any aspect of my life…all because a relationship breakup which was most certainly for the best. I now surround myself with friends and family that fully support all of my decisions and a couple that gives me that little push I need with texts like ‘you can do it’ or ‘not much longer to go.’ That alone has got me believing in myself a lot more and believing in myself lead me to an amazing relationship, blogging opportunities and a determination I never had before.
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January
January was a month of heartbreak, deadlines and my 20th birthday. Not long into the New Year I went through my first ever proper breakup and I was heartbroken, to say the least although looking back on the relationship now he was a bit of an arse…but rose-tinted glasses and that. Sure it was a pretty crappy start to the year and took me nearly 4 months to pull myself together and get my shit sorted, but in January I neglected my blog quite a bit and only had 2 posts go up. I also had 2 essay deadlines, both of which I could have done a hell of a lot better in, but alas I didn’t. Overall I didn’t get the greatest start to 2017.
Feburary
February was very much a month of reflecting and changing, I’d figured out I’d been weak in the past and gave in too easily and it’s something I needed to change or else I wasn’t going to get anywhere in life. I also spent my 20th Valentines alone…not a surprise fingers crossed 2018 isn’t so lonely. I did start to take blogging a bit more seriously than I had previously and started to put a bit more effort into my photography than previously although the photos are terrible compared to now.
March
The month I decided to take blogging seriously, I’d been doing it nearly a year and was still loving…it wasn’t something I was looking at giving up anytime soon. I was also spurred on by the arrival of an invitation to my first ever invite event. I’d previously gone to a couple of Blogosphere events and this made me super excited and I met some super amazing people at this event, most of which I still talk to currently. I was also finally starting to get my shit together after my breakup.
April
April, time to coach off to Croatia. This was my first time leaving the country since I was 10…yep that long without a proper sunny holiday. Going on Tour really brought me out of my shell quite a bit, and I created bonds with my rowers that can’t be broken they know too much but if you get the opportunity to go on a sports tour, I’d highly recommend it. As well as this I also decided to have a dabble in fashion blogging.
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May
In May I attempted every day May, but because I’d been extremely busy and this wasn’t changing anytime soon so I soon gave up and instead posted 3 times a week most of the month. I also finished my second year of university, and while I knew I hadn’t achieved the grades and instead I would need to work my arse off in third year to get a decent grade, I was prepared. I also celebrated my blogs first birthday in May and I can’t believe I’m only 5 months away from celebrating a second…it feels like I only started blogging the other day.
June
June was a pretty uneventful month, I moved back into my Mum’s for the summer, travelled up to Doncaster for Debra Bow’s birthday and generally just relaxed and spent some time to myself just doing nothing since I didn’t have any responsibilities. I also popped back to my dance school for a few classes and to catch up with both my friends and teachers. Although I did finally get taken off my anti-depressants for the first time since February 2016, and I’m still off them so that’s a positive.
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July
July is probably one of my favourite months in 2017, right at the start of the month I had my first date with Sam and we hit it off right away I must be doing something right since he’s stuck around. I also jetted off to Turkey for an all-inclusive week and laying in the sun, it was a month I just needed. It was full of happiness and new adventures, it was the jump start I needed to try and make 2017 my year again after such a bumpy start.
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August
I’m extremely proud of how often I managed to post in August since I spent every weekend and every Wednesday with Sam…leaving only 3 days of the week to get stuff done. I did though, and I didn’t hit post on anything I wasn’t proud of. In August I also made a little massive purchase to up my blog quality, I purchased an Olympus Pen E-PL7 and holy crap it’s made my photography look so much more professional and I look forward to shooting photos now…especially outfit shots.
September
Back to London, I went, it was time to get back to university and crack on with my third and final year. Luckily my workload didn’t really kick in until October, so I still had one month left in which I could spend blogging and relaxing slightly…although I don’t think I ever really relax when I’m at uni. I find it almost impossible to switch off since I live, sleep and work all in the same room.
October
Even with a hectic workload I still managed to keep blogging in October, which is something I failed at in 2016. It’s crazy to think that it was 2 months ago, when it still feels like I’ve only just hit published on some of those posts. While I may not have managed to do Blogtober, I still managed to get 6 solid posts up…something I’m extremely proud off.
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November
The stress was starting to build up in November, my classes were becoming less taught and more tutorial based which meant deadlines were nearing. I used my blog as a place where I could get away from my deadlines and could write about something that wasn’t dance related. I also had a couple of exciting events in November which I was super excited to attend and I always love getting glammed up for events even if they are after a long day at university.
December
December has completely flown by and it’s been an absolute roller coaster journey. I had 2 dance exams before Christmas, 2 essays to write over the Christmas holidays, I also spent Boxing Day with Sam and his family. I almost feel like I’m in a dream. I’m currently writing this post back at university I should be writing my second essay but I thought I’d get this done first and after 2 amazing days with Sam, I cannot wait to start 2018 and take on whatever it has to throw at me and turn any negativities around in my favour.
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What is your favourite memory from 2017?
Love you lots like jelly tots x
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Photography
All photos within this post were taken by my mum on my Olympus Pen E-PL7 in natural lighting. They were then edited on Photoshop CC 2015 and VSCO.
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